"but there was a difference..."

For the feast of Ignatius of Loyola today the second reading (below in blue) from the Office of Readings is the perfect intro to Ignatius 'discovery' of the method for discernment of spirits.

If you take time to read this, perhaps just a couple of minutes, do so considering the reality of your own life. What are your own dreams and hopes for your own day, week, year or life?  Which of these dreams leave you "full of joy"? Which leave you sad?

This consideration is the heart of Christian discernment. A "calling" or "vocation" always delivers the fulness of life that it promises. A "temptation" promises everything, and delivers nothing.

Why then would I ever settle for the fleeting and superficial gratification that temptation offers, when, in every moment, the fulness of life is offered to me?

From the life of Saint Ignatius 

from his own words by Luis Gonzalez

Put inward experiences to the test 

to see if they come from God

Ignatius was passionately fond of reading worldly books of fiction and tales of knight-errantry. When he felt he was getting better, he asked for some of these books to pass the time. But no book of that sort could be found in the house; instead they gave him a life of Christ and a collection of the lives of saints written in Spanish.

By constantly reading these books he began to be attracted to what he found narrated there. Sometimes in the midst of his reading he would reflect on what he had read. Yet at other times he would dwell on many of the things which he had been accustomed to dwell on previously. But at this point our Lord came to his assistance, insuring that these thoughts were followed by others which arose from his current reading.

While reading the life of Christ our Lord or the lives of the saints, he would reflect and reason with himself: “What if I should do what Saint Francis or Saint Dominic did?” In this way he let his mind dwell on many thoughts; they lasted a while until other things took their place. Then those vain and worldly images would come into his mind and remain a long time. This sequence of thoughts persisted with him for a long time

But there was a difference. When Ignatius reflected on worldly thoughts, he felt intense pleasure; but when he gave them up out of weariness, he felt dry and depressed. Yet when he thought of living the rigorous sort of life he knew the saints had lived, he not only experienced pleasure when he actually thought about it, but even after he dismissed these thoughts, he still experienced great joy. Yet he did not pay attention to this, nor did he appreciate it until one day, in a moment of insight, he began to marvel at the difference. Then he understood his experience: thoughts of one kind left him sad, the others full of joy. And this was the first time he applied a process of reasoning to his religious experience. Later on, when he began to formulate his spiritual exercises, he used this experience as an illustration to explain the doctrine he taught his disciples on the discernment of spirits.